Sunday 5 March 2017
Wednesday 28 January 2015
Wednesday 14 January 2015
Silver Lining
On the bright side, I have no desire to join a dating site
Saturday 20 September 2014
Tuesday 5 August 2014
You didn't keep your word.
You didn't check in with me.
I didn't think you would.
You probably thought it would do more harm than good.
But what you don't understand is,
It was never about picking up where we left off or changing your mind.
It was something to show that those three months didn't amount to nothing.
Tuesday 24 June 2014
I want to make Dirty filthy love with you.
I want to do things to make you blush.
I want to make you laugh until you turn blue.
I want to wrestle with you and lick your neck.
I want to sit down next to you and slip my arm around your middle and rest my head in the crook of your armpit.
I want to make you jump with my crazy psycho face behind a magazine.
I want to squeeze your hand in secret so you know I am there.
I want to shout "HONEYPIE! I'M HOME!" when I come in the door.
I want to throw my arms around your neck when you bend down to kiss me.
I want to make things with you
I want to go on walks with you, show you things.
I want to smile at you when you are busy.
I want to look up and see you smiling at me.
I want to dream next to you.
I want to teach you things.
I want to have secrets with you.
I want you on my side, by my side.
Friday 20 June 2014
Dear you
My life seems a little bit empty without you.
Only because I have less to do.
I think what life would be like with you still in it
And it turns out
I am glad you're not.
Saturday 10 May 2014
Sunday 4 May 2014
Thursday 10 April 2014
An Accidental Rhyme
I know exactly how good it feels.
I feel it too.
It wouldn't be so good
If it wasn't you
Thursday 13 March 2014
Truly
I feel very emotional.
There is no one around to hear me cry.
Maybe that's a good thing.
I'm very tired.
I reached the point where I didn't want to do this anymore,
Didn't want to be here.
But outside, under the light of the moon, I realised it's all good.
Despite this sadness,
Despite this pain,
I am happy.
Truly.
Wednesday 5 February 2014
Thursday 23 January 2014
Thursday 12 December 2013
Who I am now, who I was then,
We are the same, yet separate.
I can go back now.
Go back and comfort that quivering woman child so full of despair.
Go back and hold her in my arms,
Whisper in her ear that it is ok, everything is ok and you will be happy again,
Because I am here.
Always here.
Wednesday 3 July 2013
Tuesday 25 June 2013
Friday 31 May 2013
To be loved
That feeling of appreciation,
Being loved with joy and whimsy.
A memory that might be make believe.
It will be different because I am different,
Coming from a hard place, a strong place.
I haven't learned how to love independently yet,
Not quite.
Tuesday 21 May 2013
Saturday 16 March 2013
Not with the sappy, romantic dreams, but with the wide awake, wide eyed smile, the impish lust for adventure.
There is plenty of time to laze around under tress swirling your chest hair with my fingertips.
I want to grab your hand and tear off into the forest and get your new shoes muddy.
Tuesday 19 February 2013
Younger, with a porkpie hat and drainpipe jeans.
You said you weren't ready for anything serious while you were crossing the road.
Foreheads pressed together,
Eyes blurred, but I could see crystal clear.
The connection points met and it felt complete.
I am here and yet the ghosts of the past keep crowding my mind.
People I have known, half known, don't know anymore.
If life is balance then they think about me too.
I just wish they would do it quietly and leave me be.
I have this half eaten feeling.
I am all dunked out.
You drained me.
I want to step on the red dot and keep it still.
I want to turn around and say just fuck off.
I'm hungry but you don't fill me up.
Friday 21 December 2012
The Art of You
The slightest brush of my lip against yours, comforting.
I can smell you.
My cheek against you like a cat.
It's like talking.
Lips moving without making a sound.
My hand strokes your chest unconsciously.
It's not about passion.
Nor is it about sex.
It's the essence of you,
A taster,
A treat.
Appreciating the art of you.
Gentle, complete.
You are a treat xx
Monday 24 September 2012
Sunday 16 September 2012
I can't remember your face,
Just the feel of your skin and your breath catching in your throat,
The passion catching fire after smouldering for so long.
It was never far away,
And now my heart beats faster,
Nothing gained but a lingering heat, an itch,
My insides running to catch up.
In my head things seem slow, unreal and unorganised.
I can't make sense of it all.
I don't know if I am meant to.
Sunday 2 September 2012
I can't help but miss you
It's the little things that no one else seems to do
They're gone and I miss them
I'm not afraid to say it
I miss giggling
I miss feeling cared for
I miss caring for
I miss holding hands and stroking fingers
I miss stoking that fire, rattling that cage and setting it free.
I can't help it
Thursday 9 August 2012
Sunday 29 July 2012
If you read this...
Do you know I am there?
My nose against your cheekbone,
I breathe a tune waiting for you to join in.
We used to know this one.
Monday 11 June 2012
Sunday 11 March 2012
Hold on
"You make me want to be a better person.
You do.
I want to be pure when I look at you.
I want to be pure and full of light.
A creative being with love in my soul and joy in my eyes.
I look at you and want to breathe as deep as I can.
Your cool white light fanning the flames in my belly.
You are my future.
You are my hope.
My everlasting.
My love.
It is and always will be a pleasure to gaze upon you and feel your energy."
The Moon replied,
"You are welcome.
We are part of each other.
It is your light that makes me shine. It is the light of the Universe within us all.
It is a pleasure to watch over you.
With me you are always safe, always loved and always within reach.
Make your life the way you want it to be.
Honour me and yourself, always and forever I will be here loving you and your work."
Kinship, respect, honour and love. Don't starve yourself of these.
Wednesday 11 January 2012
Sunday 18 December 2011
Is now edged in icy cold, fading.
And your lips, your sweet firm lips, smooth and responsive,
The ghost of your hands stroking my neck, around my body.
Your legs wrapped around mine.
Tight closeness cocooned and hot.
All that is bundled together as a warm contented parcel inside me,
The heat rising up, proving the memories in my mind....
Friday 18 November 2011
Friday 21 October 2011
.
Keeping me together, not letting me float away,
Keeping yourself inside.
And you held me tight as the thunder ripped through the sky
And a cry ripped through my chest.
You held me while my pain rumbled away.
And you let me go when I wanted to run,
When the horse had to be let loose.
You let me go knowing I wouldn't be held,
Knowing I would come back.